head in the grass, heart in the clouds

Oh yes, the first Thursday of a new month which brings to mind our Double Dog Dare land, does it not? 

Oh, how I love the thought of adventures and experiences waiting for me around the bend, but mostly?  I love lying back in the tall grass in sinking into the sky.

Today I am altogether without ambition.  Where did I get such wisdom? 
 Mary Oliver, Blue Pastures

It's true.  Summer has me under her spell and I have no impulse to better myself, better my life, or run the vacuum (note:  in the interests of full disclosure, I never have an impulse to run the vacuum).  

My full desire is to stretch out and soak in every bit of this soft air, this bright sun, this heavenly time of year.

Good thing I've made no progress on my DDD for the summer then, hmmm?  I was to begin learning Italian in preparation for October and I have done exactly nothing toward that goal.  Well, not nothing as I did sign up for a monthly meet-up here in Providence with a group of people who like to get toegether and talk in Italian, but signing up and actually, um, attending a meet-up are two very separate things.  *sigh*

But you know what?  I am really okay with all of this because if I DO have any over-arching dare for myself-- something I want very much to make manifest in my daily life, it is more time to sit and be.  More time to breathe and think.  More time to lie back in the grass and watch the clouds.

It is so easy to get caught up in our epidemic of busyness that swirls around us* of the push to make things important, to keep up, to stay ahead, to not fall behind, to make it perfect--- when we all know by now that stress is just a mask for fear and the fear is often as simple as thinking we are not enough, not perfect right here, right now, in this moment.

So--- am counting this a win, for today.  With eyes toward ordering up some italian cds to play in my car . . .  seems easy enough.

And you?  How is your heart?  How are you feeling with regard to your small wishes and big dreams?

Wherever you are, I am sending you big sweet energies from the fields for more ease, more light, more comfort in your day.

bisous, e

*  honestly, take note of how many people you ask them how they are doing and their first reply is "I'm so busy / it's a crazy week / I'm flat out / I'm in hyperspace", etc . . .